happy birthday, Yuri! <33

unexpected way of getting a letter, huh? ever since you said "id love to have a domain because it would make so much shit easier" and i bought my own, thought it'd be nice to give you one! you'd probably make more use of it then i'd do of mine lol.

this domain is on my secondary cloudflare account. my original plan was to make an account just for it and give you the account so you can migrate stuff but i found out you can actually transfer domains between accounts. so talk to me later! i'll prepare everything and follow cloudflare's docs once you finish reading this letter.

worth noting - i paid for a year! so you can use it on that period freely. so you got plenty of time to decide if you're going to renew it or not. i dont mind paying again when the time comes lol

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yknow, i think i got into yappers in a time where i really needed a space i can call mine. not *just* a space, maybe i really needed **you.** i still frequently search for old messages as they pop up on my mind and i still look up at you as this cool figure who knows so much internet stuff that i wish i knew so much stuff you teached me sooner.

we have many parallels, little yuki,,, and i think one of those parallels is being forgiven by people from the past. looking at you and peach, at least for me - healed something inside me. i was trying to forgive myself for the things that were happening at the time and seeing someone else being forgiven, but also forgiving herself, changed something in me. in the middle of this mental re-wiring of the past few months, this was a crucial part of it. sometimes you're rewarded by understanding your mistakes and taking accountability.

not only that, *but i saw you learning how to love.* and that was beautiful. like we talked on that day, love isn't about having an intense feeling 24/7 but about being you as a whole freely with someone else and sharing your whole life, letting someone carry your whole soul as you also take care with the other's heart. this is a dynamic i really wish to have one day with someone.

words aren't enough to describe how much of an incredible friend you are. No matter how much you tell me you're "objectively a bad person", nothing will ever convince me you are. I mean look at you. You even felt guilt over your mistakes. That says a lot more about you than it seems.

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i don't have a song with lyrics that reflect the current feelings i feel as i write this - but i do know what's playing on my mind and perfectly reflects the state of my heart in this moment.

🎵**AgonyOST - Breathing Technique**

i believe that's it for now. go enjoy your gift and the extra year of life you've been given <3

*from your bluepoffin,*
Felipe Maciel